Relationships and Spirituality

There are tons of sources that speak on this topic, but I wanted to give my personal take on it since I have noticed the way in which the people we spend our time with affect our spiritual journeys and energies.

I am what they call “a relationship person”, and instead of shaming this part of myself, I have learned to explore what that means for me personally and use it to aid me rather than make me feel guilty for not being confidently single. For those of you who don’t know, I was in an abusive relationship for three years, around the same time I found a passion for Buddhism and yoga. Being with this person took so much of my energy away from exploring myself and growing spiritually and towards fueling a toxic cycle that dragged my energy downwards until I didn’t know who I was anymore. Whenever I mentioned my interest in spiritual topics, they would express their disinterest and manipulate me into wanting to talk and think less about it and more about them and our relationship. I found myself meditating less, researching less, exploring my soul less, and trying to preserve this vicious cycle that was destroying my soul.

I am now in a relationship with someone who lifts me up. I never knew what that could feel like until I found it for myself. They give me the space and the freedom to express myself spiritually and I feel no waste of energy in the direction of trying to fix or save the relationship. They don’t shame me or put me down for my spiritual practices, and they listen to me when I talk about what I am learning and getting excited about. I feel a well of energy opening in me that I am now able to do with as I please and raise to my higher chakras instead of it being manipulated downwards.

If you are finding yourself surrounded by people and energies that wear you down and leave you feeling anxious or depressed, I urge you to ask yourself what you desire for yourself and your precious energy. If you feel like the majority of your day is spent worrying or thinking about these people in your life, when you would rather spend it exploring your self and growing spiritually, pay attention to these signs. You deserve to have the ability to use your energy as you please. You won’t even recognize the damage that is being done to your soul most of the time until you find the ability to step outside your ego and observe it. I had many moments like this in my last relationship, but every time, my ego was manipulated again and again back into the darkness.

You are so worthy of healthy love.

You deserve to be loved so fully and unconditionally.

When someone looks at you through God’s eyes, and you- them, you will know you have the space to grow spiritually and they will as well.

It can feel impossible to leave these people in your life who drag your energy down, but I promise you it is not. When the timing is right and you come to see the signs surrounding you, you will know how to leave.

I am always here to talk on this subject, i love you.